keys
song of the day: http://hypem.com/#/track/1049034/Hot+Chip+Peter+Gabriel+-+Cape+Cod+Kwassa+Kwassa
i’m keeping a list of all the places i’ve stayed. there have been a lot of animals, a lot of different environments. a lot of friends. it’s easy to say that since last september i’ve slept in roughly 40 beds/couches/mattresses (not including the occasional bus)
an old friend i haven’t spoken in to a while emailed me the other day. correction: this would be the fourth friend. something weird is going on and it’s awesome.
this one had mentioned they had a dream about me. They asked me how I was to which I replied, “Well, I’m great except for the times when I’m not.” and I’m pretty sure I’ve said that to someone in recent days.
something weird is going on, and i don’t know exactly what it is. this brief petsitting/couchsurfing stint has lasted far longer than i had anticipated. and it’s ok, it’s alright. aside from the uncertainty (although thankfully april seems mostly locked up which is great) maybe the only problem is not fully being able to take in all that is around me.
i’ve been starting to try to see friends who happen to live nearby where i’m staying and that has been great. i’ve just found i disagree with so much i’ve been taught, and i’m trying to find other ways to survive and there seems to be far more options out there than i could have imagined.
maybe it’s because i’m easily bored or like a challenge, but i also want to try everything. i’ve tried certain patterns and i love structure, i do, but i have trouble finding a good balance. there really are so many choices as to what to do, where to go and that can be overwhelming. i just want to spend my time helping people, buit where to start? i’m trying to figure out how i can do that as much as possible while still keeping mysefl afloat, which can also be a challenge…
i know sometimes even if you have keys to a place you can have trouble getting in. and this is as literal and metaphorical as it gets.
