last night/early morning at occupy stl.
afterthoughts…
talking to a few folks who had been there for about a week and when i casually mentioned i was curious what to the police/occupier relationship was like in the city, one didn’t get the PGP) responded, “I work for the police department.”
it was like stumbling into a bar (or new city as I have been) hoping you’ll meet a new hot person to hook up and smoke weed with and before you even introduce yourself, they’re on your lap with a Volcano. And it’s not even taking part in it. It is knowing that it exists. This is a possibility. There is something I really want to do. And I can do it.
i had an activist friend who identified their goal as “putting themselves out of work.”
what’s been going on is we’ve all been fighting each other, and as that is stopping. we’re like the referees, the social workers, teachers, nurses, performers, artists… distracting others by sharing with them how the world could and should be. and we’ve all been saying the same thing forever.
people’s lives have been taken away simply because they to make sure everyone is safe to go anywhere. people are blocked from entering places based on something out of their control. who owns the earth?
when the idea of being able to “do anything” is brought up i have heard:
—wahhh if we were “allowed” to do anything there would be more murder!
to which I respond:
—-it already IS “legal” for people to kill each other. it just depends who is doing the killing and who is being killed.
—-FEARS of naked people having sex everywhere.
Why fear the inevitable? That NEEDS to happen!!! All the sexual repression? And issues with our bodies? Lack of Sex Education? As long as it is consensual than I am all for it. If you walk past people fucking (and you will) go about your business. As someone who has been told to “quit it” because I was touching another human being in public. It’s kind of a downer. Let people be. And also! don’t be afraid to join them if you ARE invited. maybe you can add something, Who knows? ”Hey, my name is ______, I saw you fucking on 31st st. nice work.” or
“Those are great shorts!” or
“I have been living in a police state for my entire existence and i am finally aware of all that is available to me! wow, resource!!!! i’ve never sucked a cock before due to “cocksucker” being used as a derogatory term, as well as affected many people with internalized homophobia, misogyny, etc. so why don’t i try it?”
The group mind, the group mind is growing. And perhaps some fear lack of structure i’m used to, fear the numerous choices (although i’ve been battling against the billions of choices my entire life) and leave me doing nothing instead because i can’t grasp it all.
somehow our energy is taking over and our bodies are just following.
It was always the bodies first, these shells forcing our way into things. Our mouths making promises we know we couldn’t keep just to survive one more day. We have no idea what it’s like to really be free and unafraid.
There will be an anthropologist who will do a study on human interaction up to what we were told was “the year 2011” the reason it will end in 2012 is because that stupid fucking number 2012. we are not in a year, there is no proof of any of that. we are in a moment now and we are all experiencing it at the same time. and when we can begin to see that, when no one is afraid of each other because there is no reason to be.
the anthropologist will study how much time in our lives we spent locking doors, locking ourselves and others in and out out of places. Not just homes, but cages.
ideas must be freely exchanged.
i felt scared to leave new york city because i honestly felt it was going to fall apart. i just did not want to be on the side that was punished. that’s what the last 9 years was for.
there is more danger coming. but this is the end of non-consent.
we have won.
I still do not feel it fully. I don’t know how it feels, as after the marches regardless of their cause or intent, i never felt quite so satisfied afterwards. the chanting, “we the people will never be defeated” always faded away.
the idea that we would need a leader is just another lie. we’re all leaders.
